didnot sleep

sometimes its good not to sleep and face everything.. dumb dumb..

i just want to be happy

what is happening? Ive been seeking for happiness but it is nowhere to be found. Or if not all for a price. And the price is too great, too painfull. No kidding, happiness never gets tired of running away from me. Stupid!
Everyone in this mystic world is in search for this element, this treasure that is said to be free.

i am alover of that

well i am a lover. a lover of so many things. i am not to be considered a polygamous person for loving to many things for in the first place those that i love are inanimate objects. I do love my friends and that would not be counted foul. Why? who could tell me not to love your peers? Who in this world would not do such.
They make my vain world colorful and pulls me from bitterness. Refuge. That why i AM A LOVER.

i'll forever be alone. got to watch the sunset on my own. things never came colorful. black and white, hues of grey. emblem of sorrows. marks of insanity.

im jealous

jealousy is as cruel as the grave
piercing to the crippled soul
separates you from life's sea
a spring of sorrow
in that depression have bee my sanctuary
in there the grey side of me is the safe side
i'm living in hollowed things
no sense a great waste
grief had been my heart's countenance
memoirs became cure
look beyond my misery
laugh over pain
the heart brats in anguish
emotions of mist

love grey
Shadowy yet Faint

MA_URAN

the rain pours
the wind proves its strength
a great calm was felt thereafter
faintly the moon shines
dark clods in array conquer the night sky
no single cricket made a sound
neither i heared a bark of a hound
only dtroplets of water touched my sense
a sunder in my soul
this is the world of worlds
where man keeps silent as the grave
yet, peace have been so elusive
man like puppets, deaf and mute
justice a history
until eyes are opened
no grace for humanity